Poetry Corner
Journey to Jura … (with Joshua)
This summer Jane and I visited Jura, that enigmatic Hebridean island just to the west of the Mull of Kintyre.  Jura is perhaps best known for its ‘paps’, three breast shaped mountains that dominate its skyline, and from whose summits you can experience some of the most spectacular views of Scotland’s highlands and islands.
Possibly lesser known is the fact that, in the years after the 2nd World War, George Orwell found refuge on Jura and it was here that he wrote 1984.  (Orwell changed his original title for the book ‘Last man in Europe’  simply by reversing the last two numbers of the year he finished the book 1948)  I guess its debatable which of Jura’s illustrious visitors, Orwell or St Colomba who passed by on his way from Ireland in 563 or thereabouts, to spread the Christianic message, had the greater impact on modern life.  At school I read 1984 from cover to cover – can’t say the same of the bible.
You could say that both are now outdated. Â There are just two churches left on Jura and one of those has been converted to a holiday home, which is where Jane and I stayed while we were there, along with our good friends Alison and Aggie.
As always Joshua was with us. Â Here are some words and pictures that reflect our time on Jura.
Church
You stand alone
Above the track
Between one house and another.
From across the bay
I can see only mist
Swimming towards the dawn
That will always change with the tide
Of being.
Jura
You float in the must of strange weeds
Drifting upwards like strings of
Semen
Broken, dispersed and afraid of
Belonging
To the swarm that begins and ends with
Every dying
Breathe
Bell
It must have been an age
Since last you
Spoke to those who cared
To hear the news of distant wars
Perhaps sixty years or more
When Orwell wrote
Nineteen
Eighty four
Ungetatable
He said when he found Barnhill
At the end of the path
Past deserted forests of a thousand
Crucifixes hung with children
Blindfolded and redacted
Forbidden from
Crying out
Pain to pain
Corrievreckan
Baptismal whirlpool
When Colomba came with the child
On the way to Iona
Was it already mute
Never to be mine
Never to be yours
Never really to make it
Through the night
Beinn an Oir
Barren, broken breast
With your crusts of scree
Mecca for many and I
Who would break an ankle
For just one peek
Behind
Your veiled
Horizons
Watch me boy,
Watch me dive below
Dark brown blackish
Waters of Jura’s lochans
Stain glass shards slipping through my fingers
Naked now
Pulling me closer to that
Cloistered void
Called death
This Tree is Planted in Memory of You – by Claire Gale
The Gale Family have been a fantastic support for us since Josh died. Â Â Holly was one of Josh’s best friends and Rosie is his sister Rosa’s best friend. Â Â Â Claire is their mother who has written these words which Hollie read out at the time of the tree planting
Children’s poems about life after death
In the last few months Year six children from Elmhurst School in East London, have been working on a poetry project as part of their R.E lessons.  They have been learning about death and what different religions believe about life after death.    Holly Gale, a good friend of Josh, is their teacher.
This is what Hollie told us about the project:
“We got the children to think about the feelings surrounding ‘loss.’ Many were able to relate this to when they had missed someone who had gone away for a while, whilst others were able to relate to a more permanent feeling of loss, due to loosing a relative or a friend.
We asked the children to create a poem based on these feelings.
In order to do this we started by showing the children an animation called ‘The Piano” by Aidan Gibbons, which is about an elderly man who is remembering people he had lost in his life, whilst playing the piano. The children had to express their feelings through drawings or words and record their own interpretations of what they saw in any way they wished. They were then played songs that were about death by three different artists. Again, they were asked to record their feelings and their interpretations of what they had heard.”
The final source of stimulus was “Released”, (the book  Jimmy produced soon after Joshua died). In this book were photographs of ashes and the children discussed why it may be important for people who had lost someone to keep the ashes of someone special to them.
Despite this being a topic that many adults struggle to cope with, I feel the children dealt with the issues with a tremendous sense of maturity and sensitivity.”
My Life Lost Without You
by Afsand
I felt like a star alone, in the empty night.
I felt like a dot, that wasn’t part of anything.
True love stays,
People leave,
Time flies, as people die.
I’ll miss you,
Every time I see you.
You are not there,
I feel devastated.
Friendship bonds frozen.
As people doze in their death,
My memories are spent thinking about you.
Where are you?
Darkness looms,
Looms around me.
When I see you,
You make me smile,
But when you vanish I cry.
Our love stays,
But you are gone,
So I shatter.
You never hear me,
Whilst I am praying,
But please come today.
The ocean’s crying,
And I’m watching you.
In every dream,
I try to see you, but it is like a shield blocking you.
When will I see you?
The streets are quiet,
I know you are here.
When I hear a glistening voice,
It makes me so happy.
Your voice keeps on echoing in my head.
Whenever I go out,
I see you coming to me,
But when I come,
You are not there.
My heart is beating out of patience,
Please come for me.
When I touch something that shows a picture of you,
The sky falls like you’re trying to push through.
Even though I am thinking of you,
You’re never coming back,
Forever again?
Bye, bye.
I may never see you, but I will always find you.
By Asfand 6HG
Friends Forever
by Krisknika
Death is simply moving onto the next level in life,
It is inevitable.
So…
No need to worry, my presence will always linger in the atmosphere.
A part of me will always be here.
No need to plunge into sorrow,
I will guide you along the right path.
I wish I could reverse time.
No need to cry, I will be there to share your feelings,
I know you are in heaven smiling.
Keep calm and carry on,
Don’t wear a sad countenance just because you can’t see me.
Don’t be engulfed in grief just because you can’t talk to me.
Life is a God-given gift.
Enjoy the present.
Don’t waste your time deploring the past.
By Krishnika 6D
Life without You!
by Hamima
You were the best person I have ever met,
When I used to get in trouble you were always there to help,
I’m not strong enough to bring you back from the dead,
I imagine you – this gives me strength to carry on.
Life’s like fire bursting out of nowhere,
I need you here,
I need you alive,
I need your help right now.
The sun is dying and the moon is vanishing,
Death comes closer and closer,
The brightness is getting further and further.
Our love was strong,
Death will strike at any time,
But our love will be everlasting,
Why did you have to leave me?
It seems like you’re there but you’re not.
You make me think you’re there but you’re not.
Even though you’re gone you’ll still be in my dreams,
When I heard that you were dead,
My heart was full of dread,
But I’m getting closer to seeing you again.
I am truly sorry for the pain I’ve caused you,
I will always pray for you.
The storm is laughing a menacing laugh,
Your love is a river of smiles,
But now it’s a hand waving goodbye.
I feel your hands entangle me when I fall,
Your eyes are jewels that twinkle in the stars.
Every day passes full of ups and downs and so I follow
your footsteps to heaven.
You were honourable to everyone you met.
Sometimes you would sit as quiet as a mouse,
Thinking of the future that lies ahead of you,
But now it’s ended tragically.
It’s my turn bye to say it to you.
Time will pass quickly but our memories will stay forever.
I will always think about you – I imagine what you’re getting up to,
I’ll love you, I’ll miss you, I’ll pray for you, even though our bond has separated.
Life without you is darkness waiting to snatch your soul out,
You’re alive but without breath.
Good bye for now; I’ll see you hereafter.
By Hamima 6HG
WHY???…WHY???…WHY???
by Fatima
As I look searchingly in the sky,
I quest to the mayor of all – up high.
People think I’m mad sitting in this cold,
But I request for something more precious than gold.
Why did you have to snatch my parents from me??
As to unlock any problem they were my key.
Since, they have gone I’ve become lonely,
Now without them, I’m drowning in the black sea.
I understand that everyone has to leave someday.
I don’t know why…but I still pray.
With memories, I’ve learnt to smile when you’re away,
May angels welcome you on your way…
By Fatima
THE SORROW PASSING
by Sardar Akhtar
Time is eternity,
Life is not.
But love lasts forever ,
No matter what.
I will never forget you.
My love is always with me because
Love lasts forever.
No matter what.
Your safety was my concern,
But I didn’t achieve my goal but when I think of you I feel your love,
It’s because it lasts forever.
No matter what.
Words don’t express how I feel for you,
It’s because I feel sorrow for your passing.
It might be because actions speak faster than words
But even if you’re one million miles away I will still feel your love
Because love lasts forever.
No matter what.
I feel your hand holding mine.
I feel and hear your breath,
Because however far you are,
Whatever glistening star you are,
I still feel your love,
Because love lasts forever,
No matter what.
BY SARDAR AKHTAR 6HG
LOST
by Fahim
Friendship’s risen but now it’s gone,
Our everlasting bond has come to an end.
If only I had the same friend who would cheer me up again.
I will never forget you or stop loving you.
Separation has turned to a devastating inspiration that will never leave my heart.
Please come back, please come back.
Please make sure I resist this sadness for you.
I will assist.
I wish I had seen you once more.
I wish you were here, as you represent happiness, like a dove.
I will never forget you or stop loving you.
The lonely times have felt like an ocean of sadness waving through the hands of my friends.
A true bond, is strong and it lies between friendships.
Your face appears in front of my eyes which makes me feel warm.
I will never forget you or stop loving you.
By Fahim 6HG
Poem about death and life
by Faizal
Death is nothing at all.
When one of my family relatives die,
At that moment they die, my heart beats as fast as a drum.
My heart beats as if it is giving me a warning that sadness will come over me.
Death is a murderer, killing people but death never stops.
It’s kinda hard when you aren’t around,
Why does this happen to me?
When I see my relatives die my heart gets locked with sadness and anger.
My body shakes with fear.
I wish I had the strength to bring the people back to life from the dead.
This is what happens to me, I get bad luck but why?
Does everyone get bad luck?
Of course not.
By Faizal (Class 6D)
The Young Man on the Hill – by Lyndsey Gill
From all over our neighbourhood Josh,s tree can be seen on the hill on the other side of the valley.
It  catches my breath and is a huge comfort as I walk the paths and hills of Chalford Hill.
Lyndsey captured its importance beautifully in her short poem which she read at our first public screening of Remembering Josh.
Thanks Lyndsey (Jane)
There’s a young man on the hill
I see him clear against the morning sky
There’s a young man on the hill
Say hello as you pass by
I see his tree standing straight and tall
I see his bench with its beautiful view
See him often, speak his name
As I wander these fields and walk the lane
There’s a young man on the hill
I see him bright against the evening sky
There’s a young man on the hill
Give him a nod as you pass by
Lyndsey Gill
January 2012
Memories by Lyndsey Gill
Some words here from Lyndsey Gill. Â Â Lyndsey is the mum of Jess, one of Josh’s best friends from school and she writes with a wonderful clarity and economy producing images so sharp you can almost smell the air they breathe.
Thanks Lyndsey for some beautiful memories
(Jimmy)
Sweeter than lemon squash you are……
This is the song my Mum used to sing to Josh.
Joshua, Joshua……Josh.
The beautiful boy who came to Corsica with us. Gentle, funny, intelligent, brave….
Josh and Jess, in the mountains, diving from a high rock into a deep pool, momentarily transformed in the air, beautiful young boys swift and clean as kingfishers. Then back to gangly lads, limbs spread on a rock to dry in the sunshine.
Josh and Jess, delivering leaflets for the Indian takeaway.
They shuffle off in their huge trainers, laces undone, their baggy jeans falling down.
I run out into the road after them and call out, laughing, “Do up your laces! Pull up your trousers! Move!â€
They turn and smile at me, gently, “yeah, yeah†with all the folly and wisdom of youth.
Then they shuffle off up the road, round the corner, out of sight……
A poem by Hilary Burgess
Our dear friend Hilary lives a mile from Josh’s tree and can see it from her bedroom window. Every morning when she opens her curtains she tells me she thinks of Josh as she sees his tree on the hill across the valley.
Her poem was written on the first anniversary of his death. Â (Jane)
Josh’s tree
Each morning, drawing open the curtains on a new day –
looking over the valley to the hilltop above Westley Farm:
Three trees stand guardian in the hedgerow
bearing witness to a fourth
that is growing to join them.
Josh’s tree:
planted for a life cut short
but cherished in our hearts –
a son, a brother,friend, son of friend.
A year has passed –
slowly, painfully
But his tree is slowly growing
A testament to his life and those who loved him
Each day the light changes on the hilltop:
now the dawn: a tongue of fire
illuminates the tree from the east;
Now a sea of light mist fills the valley,
the trees sailing wonderously above;
Now driving rain envelopes the valley
Under grey clouds;
Now the evening sun warms the hillside
And Josh’s tree grows copper;
And then at night, drawing the curtains to,
the moon casts lengthy arboreal shadows
and the stars watch over
Josh’s tree
Hilary Burgess
16 Jan 2012
A poem by John Burnside
Here is a poem by John Burnside, recently published in THE LONDON REVIEW OF BOOKS, written in response to some ancient beliefs that the body as well as the soul is immortal and could at any time re-emerge from the grave. Â Â Â Â For me the poem provokes strong feelings not about Joshua rising from the dead, but of all the things we have done to keep him alive. What I mean is to keep his memory alive. Â But still that terror still lurks as part of my grief – that terror that impossibly Joshua is not dead and will fulfill my deepest wish and walk in through the door.
We wanted to seal his mouth
with a handful of clay,
to cover his eyes
with the ash of the last
bonfire he made
at the rainiest edge
of the garden
and didn’t we think, for a moment,
of crushing his feet
so he couldn’t return to the house
at Halloween,
to stand at the window,
smoking and peering in,
the look on his face
like that flaw in the sway of the world
where mastery fails
and a hinge in the mind
swings open – grief
or terror coming loose
and drifting, like a leaf,
into the flames.